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Wednesday, May 17th, 2006
12:26 am	COLD God I hate winter. So freaken cold. Heater ISNT warming me up :( So like work is good !! Im on leave at the moment !! 12 days of it ! Fricken sweeeet. Its coz GIR is over from Aussie (Well he will be at 12.50 tonight) for 12 days so we can see MyOldSock as he is unwell :( We are going to stay in Rotorua with him for about 5 or so days. Today I was on the phones for about an hour and my Team Leader asks me if I want a easy day today so I say yeaahhh and then he gets me to call coach all the newbs we have (bout 7 of em) !!! So all I did was listen to their calls and help when they are stuck ! Soo easy and yet sooo fun. I love my Team Leader. Ummmmm we kicked one of our flatmates out !! We live with this guy Aaron (Goten^ on IRC) and heeeeeeee is weird :P So we asked him to move. Didnt give him a specific day though.. we so should have. We just said he can move when he finds a place. Home is pretty cluttered. Our house is only small and we just cant fit anymore shit in here. Hardly any of my friends have seen my new place :( My 21st is in 2 months !!! Im already planning it. Might hire out Hysteria when I finally find out how much its going to cost me. Got about 70 people listed that will come and I guess they will bring randoms etc. Hope it will be a good one and I WILL SEE YOU ALL THERE !!! Its going to be on the 15th of July. Birthday is actually on the 17th of July. It doesnt seem like that far away really. I feel old already !! I think I will do the 21 shots of stuff instead of the yardie. I dont like feeling bloated !! Im not going to drink much until then because my kidneys are screwed and ache when I drink so I need to save them for just that one night :P Shit and piss. Oh I plan to get my learners before I turn 21 too !! I dont have anyone to help teach me how to drive though :( And im too poor for a car at the moment. Oh I went part time at work !! Its getting a bit tedious and shit and I have too many other things to think about at the moment. It will start when I get back from my leave. Im excited about it really. OH IF YOU'RE READING THIS STEVE !! CONGRATS ON THE ENGAGEMENT!! Im happy for you :D Im jealous :P Everyone seems happy in their LONG TERM RELATIONSHIPS and I have no oneeeee. Ah well !! I have umm books. And my kitten. Anddddddddd ummmmm some teddy bears. Andddddddddd my new heater :P Possibly that is it now........................... Current Mood: cold (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, April 9th, 2006
12:51 pm	Hello !!! Well its Sunday evening and I cant be bothered getting off my chair to do productive stuff so here I am. Not really all that much to talk about I guess. Nothing really changess. Work is good ! Happy there at the moment. Home is good ! Finally finished paying off my Fridge and got one more small payment on my sofas to go. So im hoping I wont be as poor next payday. Then again I gotta catch up on stuff and buy things I need. I also need to take my kitten to the vet :O One or both of our kittens are pooing blood and mucus like stuff. We arent sure which one it is so we are going to take both in at the same time. Umm oh I finally went to see the doctor about my anxiety. Ive never ever seen anyone professional about it and ive had it since i was like 8 so its a big thing. It was just getting out of hand and i wasnt really able to leave the house without having a panic attack. So i went to see him and he said that I have depression too so he gave me these drugs called Aropax and they help depression and panic attacks. I dont like taking medication so i havent even started taking them yet. I dont know if I will. He also referred me to a counsellor that I have to see weekly. Shes in the same building as him though so it makes it easier. Shes not too expensive. Its something like $75 a session which goes for an hour. Though I have to go weekly so its going to add up. Also the doctor told me I can think about going on the sickness benefit if I like. He told me he would back me up. So im kinda considering it. I dont think ill be afford to scratch my ass if I did go on it though. I asked him if I could try a more natural approach to helping my anxiety but he said ive had it for so long and he doesnt believe anything natural will do anything for me. He said counselling will do it but he really wants me to take the meds too. But if I do take the meds I have to take them for a minimum of 12 months :/ I dont want that ! Oh I saw a great band the other week !! H-I-M ! They were pretty damn good. I went by myself but thats okay. Was still so totally worth it. I saw Kane there. He's dyed his hair red and he looks like a fag. He was also with a stupid little slapper. I didnt speak to him but I spoke to his little brother. Those are pretty much the main things going on at the mommenntttt. Poor kitty !! I must go have breakfast now ! Current Mood: mellow Current Music: Bullet for my Valentine (Comment on this)
Thursday, March 23rd, 2006
11:19 pm	-_- Hello. Haven't really updated much lately I guess. Been a bit busy with the new place and stuff. It's going good ! I've been pretty organised lately. I have my fridge now ! And we have sofas. And a washing machine ! We named her Lisa because her brand name is Simpson ! Such an imagination. Oh I got my kitten too. Sez also got one. They are sisters. Black lil things. Pretty cute but pretty cunty at times. They are toilet trained but today when we came home there was vomit on the floor, pee near lisa and the litter box was full :/ So not fun. They are generally good kitties though and thats their first mishap. Work has been going alright. Bit stressful though. Didnt really get all that much training and they kind of just shoved us on the phones. I guess I'm slowly getting better. I'm now able to help people with their problems ! I still have a pretty good team leader though and I have made some awesome friends so that makes it much easier. Money had been stressful as hell !! Soooo many bills. Like rent, food, phone, power, adsl, sofas, fridge, bus money :O Its just sooo never ending. I have almost finished paying the fridge though so thats good. One less bill ! Then I can buy things like heaters and more duvets and big hoodies and stuff for winter. Only thing I like about winter is that you can snuggle on the couch !! Not that I have anyone to snuggle with :P Welll I have my kitty ;> Though shes not very cuddly. Bit stressed about my sick friend too. He's always in pain :/ I dont like to say but it but I dont think he has much time left. I'm scared I will have a nervous breakdown when he dies. My anxiety has been SO intense lately. I have to look after myself better !! Less beer and more carrots. I'm working on it slowly. Sooo happy thoughts. Oohh I know whats happy !! I bought a colour book and felts today so I can have something fun to do ! I was a bit stressed today so when I got home I coloured some pictures and I felt heaps better. It takes my mind off crap. Sez got one also so we are going to turn it into a drinking game !! (we turn EVERYTHING into drinking games :P) we have a rule that when we do food shopping we have to buy a box of beer at the same time. Though my stomach is getting BIGGER so we didnt get beer this week. Might go for wine instead :P Oh I went down to the prison a few weekends ago. Was an interesting experience. Very intimidating at first. Got to see both of my friends there. That was good. One is still the same as he used to be !! The other has changed a shit load :O It was prettyy weird to see. I'll probably go back in a few months time. This weekend I went to Palmerston North for my dads 50th. Ohhhh yeah I had a story !! Well ya see I havent eaten chicken in 4 and a half maybe 5 years. I hate the stuff. When we arrived in Palmerston North it was 9am and my dads wife decides to cook us a big breakfast. Sausages, spaghetti, toast etc. So while eating the sausages my brother says how good they are. My dads wife replys with "Yeah they are chicken sausages!!" By that time I had eaten one and was on my second (they are mini sausages). I shout out "YOU ARE KIDDING ME RIGHT?!?!" And her face drops and she says OH FUCK. I have like the BIGGEST anxiety attack and then I burst into tears and run outside. Cant say I have ever cried over sausages before :( I cried because I was scared I was going to get sick and I cried for the chicken :/ I felt sooo cruel eating it !! It was a very weird experience. I eat other meat just fine. Soooo yeahhhhhh I am a fruitcake ;> Anyways time for sleep !! Current Mood: stressed Current Music: Metallica - I dunno what song, my flatmate is playing it -_- (Comment on this)
Sunday, February 19th, 2006
11:35 pm	Well hello there. I MOVED HOUSE TODAY ! I now live on the Shore :P In Birkdale. Its an ok house. I'm living with Sez. Seems to be going good so far. We have everything we need except a fridge and washing machine. I think I am getting a fridge from my work mate on Tuesday. I hope so anyway. Also tomorrow I will hopefully get my kitten ! Going to Napier prison to see my two friends there next Sunday. Really looking forward to it. Havent seen them both in months and months. Hmmm what else ? Oh Steve is over from Aussie at the moment ! He is here to see my sick friend :( I wish he was here on better circumstances :/ I guess at least he is here though. He goes back to Aussie on Tuesday. I', off work until then. Yay a holiday ! Kind of anyways. Ok I dont care if this is short. I'm really really tired. NIGHT. Current Mood: tired (Comment on this)
Sunday, February 5th, 2006
11:57 am	~~ Hello. Bout time I updated I guess. Also Mike keeps nudging me :P Not much to say. Still at my job at iHug/iiNet at the moment. I really like it there. I have the coolest Team Leader I could ask for. Good money, cruisy job. Great people there. I even volunteer'd to do night shift from 2.30-11pm mon-fri because thats when my Team Leader and friends are on. Also I get to do less work because no one cares if you slack off really :P. Still single !!! Still missing Kane :P I've seen him a few times since we have been broken up. It's hard. I think im slowly getting over him though. We havent txt'd each other in almost a week so thats good ! Oh yeah I did have important news !! Heh its really sad news too. Anyways. A good friend of mine found out he had lymphnode cancer in december and he had the operation to get it removed. Everything was ment to be fine and dandy and then he had some more tests and found out that he also has cancer on his back bone, his heart, his lungs and his kidneys. So basically its terminal. He's only 26. They told him if his cancer grows as quick as his lymphnode cancer did then he has about 2 months left. Heh I'm finding it really hard to cope with this news. He's a great guy. He doesn't deserve this. When he told me I just kinda broke down. I was at work at the time and I just got up and left. I went and saw him a day ago and he was doing ok. Constantly on morphine so he's happy enough. He's not scared of dying. I'm scared for him! Oh Lara and Gordon came over to visit me !!! They stayed here for a week and we crashed at my brothers place. We went to the big day out together and I took them to dinner many times and we saw the museum and they went up the Skytower and went on a trip to Rotorua and it was just so good to see her ! I can't wait til she moves to New Zealand. Even if she will be living in Wellington or Palmerston north ! Atleast its not as far as Melbourne and I wont have to fly every time I want to see her. yay !! Anyways its brunch time now ! I'm still in my PJs and at the mo im lounging around someone elses house and I don't even know them :P Gotta go ! Will try post more soon. Current Mood: crushed (Comment on this)
Sunday, December 18th, 2005
6:42 pm	HEH. Okie Hello. Much has changed. Came back to New Zealand on November 8th to live. Anyways the story so far: Kane didnt end up visiting me in Australia so I had to come back for him. I eneded up moving into a place with Steve while I was there and it wasnt to far from Laras house. Just before I came back home I got to visit Perth and saw Laras family again. I also went to Sydney and Northern Territory. Twas pretty good. I hated Sydney tho. Too many flies damnit ! Anyways so Im back home living at the same place I was living before. I have a job at ihug and the money is pretty good. Im enjoying it so far. So like I come home, 3 weeks later Kane dumps me. After I move back to NZ for him. Grrrr makes me mad just typing about it. He said that he wasnt in love with me anymore. He didnt even give me a long enough chance. 3 fecking weeks was all I got with him. I have a cow and some cds still at his place that I need to collect and I still owe him $60 so I will pay on Friday and collect my stuff then. Its gonna be really hard. Even though hes a fucking cunt and he really hurt me, I miss him so much. I dont have anyone really. Like I have friends but I dont really feel like I have things in common with them anymore. Its pretty hard to socialise. Anyways not sure if I mentioned a while back that a friend of mine got arressted and was going to jail. He got sentanced on Dec 5th and hes in Mt Eden. He got a 3 and a half year sentance with no minimum parole period. Its pretty harsh I think but he deserves it. I will see him in a couple of weeks. Hes got me on his visitors list. Ohhhh also U2 are coming to nz in March and I managed to get me a ticket !! Im soooo pleased. They ran out in like an hour !! Im going to go with Jacek and Kuba and Sezzles. Something to look forward to :) Not sure what else is new... Oh yeh me and Sezzles are looking for our own place. We really want an apartment in town. If not then we will get a house central hopefully and we are getting pets !!!! two cats and one dog is the plan. I cant wait. We are aiming to do it around the middle of January. Well better go now.. I have to clean my room before Kelly gets home and Im so hungover its going to take me ages. Also I need food ! Current Mood: hungry (Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 31st, 2005
9:57 pm	this isnt ment to last~ Hello yes. hi. I WENT TO AUCKLAND FOR THE WEEKEND!!! WWEEEE !!! It was really good to be home actually. Such a waste of $500 tho. Went there on Friday and came back Sunday. I didnt really get to see any friends, mostly just family and i got to see Kane. Fuck it was good seeing him !! Try going a month without seeing ur long term bf :( I only got to see him for like 2 days n now i have to wait 6 weeks for him to come over for a visit. Just a visit :( Its better than nothing though. But yeah. Also everyone eat at the Lone Star in New Lynn. Its GOOD. Me n some of my whanau and Kane went there on friday night. Not one of us could finish what was on our plates, and Kane can eat ALOT. More than anyone I know. Prices were good, everything was just under $30. I missed NZ food SO much. Aus food just isnt as classy. Hmm what else is new? Notto Mucho. Work is good...ish :P Actually its really good apart from the old fucks that call up with no life. WHY IS EVERY OLD PERSON ANNOYING?!! Sorry nana. But yeh. I do like my job.. I like helping people and making them happy by fixing their problems. Though my work doesnt have a very good customer service policy. They dont expect us to bend over backwards for people and in a few circumstances ive seen we basically just rip people off. Sometimes i feel a bit embarrassed not being able to help people because of our shit polices. But i guess thats just business. Oh also ive decided to definately move out with Steve. Ive told Lara and she seems to be ok with it i guess. I thought about it and i just know ill be happier living with Steve. Though I hope we dont move too far from Lara as i want to see her as much as I can. I just dont think id be able to handle the way she lives for too long and I dont want to ruin our friendship as ive known her since i was 3. So basically shit is still the same over here. Work, sleep, eat, shit, shower.. all weekend.. and then on the weekend SOMETIMES i get to sleep in n thats about as exciting as stuff gets lately :P Current Mood: crazy Current Music: Nine Inch Nails - Physical (you're so) (Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 23rd, 2005
10:23 pm	wooo HELLO Ummmm.... ON WEDNESDAY NIGHT I SAW NIN IN CONCERT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it was so awesome. Its been the highlight of my time in aussie so far. So good !! I recommend everyone goes n see's them. Anyways. Work has been good. I enjoy work. Tho i dont enjoy old fucking men that call up and abuse me because they have no life. Get a hobby you old cunt !!! But yeh :P Apart from the odd old cunt that calls up, i like it. And i do reallly like formal compliments on my 3rd day of being on the phones :D:D And the money.. i get goood money :D COMING TO AUCKLAND THIS WEEKEND ! just for the weekend. Its going to cost me $500 bucks to get there n back :/ but im too home sick and i miss Kane too much so I have to come. Itll be worth it. Ill come back in October i think as well.. or after i get settled in here. Our flatmate Jem is moving out of the house tomorrow and she owns like all the shit here. The fridge.. the washing machine.. the couches.. the tables.. the fucking everything. So we are going to be living in poverty for a while I think. Me and Steve are ment to be finding our own place together because he doesnt get along with Lara at all. But like today Lara tried convincing me to stay here with her etc and I do want to but omg she is so messy and so is her bf and i cant stand it when she snobs me and totally cuddles up to her bf constantly.. She knows it makes me miss Kane more and she said she will try stop it but she hasnt really tried at all :/ I told her if shes not so messy and snobby ill stay here with her.. Steves not going to like this idea at all :/ Waaa i hate people !!! Maybe i should just get my own place... Nah too expensive :/ Im le tired.. shit its 10.30 !! i got work at 9am so yeh.. I better go. Current Mood: okay Current Music: poo (Comment on this)
Friday, August 5th, 2005
11:39 pm	Hello Well ive been in aussie for nearly 2 weeks now. I got myself a job within 4 days of being here. I work for Energy Australia and they are fucking awesome to work for. I actually enjoy it. Tho i am still in training at the moment ! I like it here, but i am so fucking home sick. I miss everyone ! Im actually *sick* from it. But oh well. Its taking my all effort and self control to not just come home. The main thing stopping me is my job. And oh my gosh there are SO many shops here. Its just stupid !! I go threw money sooo quick. I came over with $1000 and i got like $250 left. Lucky i get paid on tuesday. So many good deals here. Like i got 2 work shirts today for $6 each and a work skirt for $6 and stuff like that. Oh and a cd shop with all cds for under $15. One bad thing here is the food. Oh my god aussie food is GROSS. Ive lost 3 kg in just under 2 weeks from just not eating n being hungry all the time. Its just not fresh and nice and it tastes stale etc. Also I havent really been talking with Lara much. Shes ALWAYS with her boyfriend and when they are together she totally doesnt talk to me. Its really weird. Ive been planning to come here for years n years n when i finally get here she doesnt hangout with me. Maybe I just smell bad ? Nah I dont know. Things will be better when Steve comes back from America. The other day i went to my friend Dmagda's place and she has pet snakes !!! and a blue tongue lizard. Hehe hes so cute ! his name is George. And i actually held a snake ! tho he was little. His name is chicken. Id post the pic up but i look soooo bad in it. but yeh im so scared of snakes so i guess im proud of that :P Im fucking tired now, i had a long day at work. It was my first day on the phones today so yeh. Shopping tomorrow ! Current Mood: lonely (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, July 24th, 2005
11:07 pm	Aussie! Well I arrived in Aussie today! Its really nice. Kind of cold though. The place im staying at is flash! I love it. I get to stay with my best mate Lara who i havent seen since i was 11. Shes pretty much still the same which is good :P We get on just like we used to. Her boyfriend is nice too. Man speaking of boyfriends. I want Kane :( I miss him so much and ive only been gone a couple of hours. Hes a poor wee fing. He started to cry at the airport when i was leaving. I hope hes ok. He will love it here, i just know it. I just need to convince him to come sooner than October! Well I'm pretty tired because I havent been sleeping very much lately and the trip over here took like 4 hours and i couldnt sleep at all. I think i need sleep. Its a bit cold tho. I'll speak more when im not as tired and when i've seen more of the city. Current Mood: accomplished (Comment on this)
Saturday, July 16th, 2005
12:42 am	khi Alright hello :) Its friday and i got home before 12 coz i have no frieenndss. Nah it was my last day of work today!! yay!! so glad to have finished in that hell hole! Anyways my party is tomorrow night :D its at MyOldSock's apartment in town. Oh and i turn 20 on Sunday!! im getting so old :( but yeah.. Also on the 24th of this month i move to Aussie :D:D 1 week away!! Im really excited to finally,. FINALLY get to see Lara and get out of Auckland. Oh yeh on Wednesday night I had to say goodbye to Aaron :( fuck im going to miss him heaps. He's the only one out of that group of friends that i can really talk to and he doesnt snob me and he can keep a secret and hes just generally a really good mate and i wont get to see him for years im assuming. Although he did move to Palmy north and my dad lives in Fielding so i could seee himmm.. but thats if i ever get to see my dad :/ Oh yeh me and Kane had our 1 year anniversary but we havent been able to do anything special for it yet because he's still getting over his hernia operation and hes been staying at home heaps because he has to rest :/ i did get to spend the night with him but thats it so far. Maybe we can celebrate it more on my birthday or something. Tomorrow im going to go to Henderson and get Kane a passport form so he can get his passport sorted before i leave so he can come visit me when i'm away! He's promised me he will. I hope so :( K well its pretty late now i guess.. ill update as soon as i can! Will probably be when im in aussie tho :D woohoo! Current Mood: hopeful Current Music: soon (Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 29th, 2005
11:14 pm	*yawn* Hello! Well hi, yesterday i went and saw Mudvayne live :D:D They were great!! Definately worth $50. Im still tired though! And a little sore from the mosh pit but that will be gone in the morning. They're support band was Cold by Winter and there were pretty funky. Damn i bet im going to make heaps of spelling mistakes because im so very tired. Its mine and Kanes one year in 2 weeks :O he has a surprise for me.. hes been planning it for ages. I dont know what to do for him :/ any suggestions ? It doesnt feel like its been a year though. It has been a good year :) I've had plently of cuddles etc. fuck too tired. Ill post some details on my party when i get them. Atm still deciding on a definate date and place. I think thats all I had to say. Goodnight. Current Mood: tired Current Music: listening to my sister rant :/ (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, June 23rd, 2005
12:07 am	ok so im slack K I have been slack lately on updating, but its been hard getting to a pc. Anyways :D:D:D EXCITED. I bought my plane ticket on Sunday. I am LEAVING. July 24th which is a Sunday. Can't bloody wait. I knew that id get to leave this time. I get to see my best friend Lara and see Steve as well. Since um they live in the same house now :P So i will be staying with them. Oh yeah i also have a new laptop :D Mum bought it for me for a early 20th birthday present and so i can keep in touch when im in aussie. its the best pressie ill ever get :/ she spent like 2grand on me! i feel like a spoilt little child :P So i should be able to update a bit more often now. Also hmmm theres some news but im pondering if i should post it or not. Maybe just a bit. Dale um is going to jail! Like definately. Its really extrememly fucked up. The police took my desktop coz it was at his pc when his house got raided :( all my music is gone. waaaaahh. Hes on home curfew 24 hours a day. Im not sure what he did. Its all hush hush at the moment. Its something to do with computers tho. Some kind of hacking thing i suspect :P im not really ment to tell anyone!! but since hes definately going away i dont see why i should shut up :P Fuck im tired. I hope my sister wakes up early enough in the morning so we can go to the gym! i havent been in ages and i want to get my moneys worth before i go to aussie. Tomorrow im handing in my notice at work. Thats going to be sooo satisfying. I hate work! it sucks so much ass. They were going to put me on helpdesk too which would have been good for my CV, but they know im going to resign now so they wont. Dammit. Hmmm anymore news? I dunno. I havent been going out jack all lately. It seems I have no friends! I dont see Taz at all. Steve is in Aussie. Dale is in Jail :P Hayley is never around. I have Kane though. Sometimes. When we arent arguing :/ But yeah. Kane has promised to come to aussie in september to visit me :D he PROMISED. so he better. Fuck its real late and I have work tomorrow and shopping to do and people to see for lunch and i neeeeed to go to the gym. Im getting fatter :( Yeah so feeing good at the moment. Will update later when its not 1am. Current Mood: ecstatic Current Music: none as its all fucking gone :(!!! (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, May 13th, 2005
1:51 pm	gah Man ive just over the worst virus EVER. On Monday I went to a Japanese place and had lunch, didnt eat again til about 7.30pm that night. Had some tomato soup with some vogels bread and then *BAM* sorest stomach pains ive EVER had. Couldnt walk or breath or do jack all. Sucked. So i got a lift home, sat on the couch, decided it was time to go to bed because i couldnt handle the pain, when I tried to lay down i felt like throwing up. Sat up and had some water, got the guts to lay down again and then i had a txt message, it was Kane saying goodnight. The minute i read it and put my phone down and ran to the toilet as fast as I could but didnt quite make it. I ended up spewing on the toilet, not in it. It was red with bits of beans and rice in it and took me about half an hour to clean up. SO gross. So my tummy was feeling mildly better and i managed to lay down. Didnt get any sleep all night though. The next morning the toilet still smelt of spew and I had a fever and a sore head and couldnt go to work. I didnt stay away from people as i just assumed it was food poisoning from the Japanese place. So all day Tuesday I sat at home in my pjs which had spew on them and i didnt even realise! Managed to not spew again all day. Wednesday arrived and my head is killing me but my fever has gone and I manage to go to work for about 3 hours before I had to come home from feeling sick still. Thursday rolls around and I wake up feeling mostly dandy except my fucking head, and next thing i know i see Sandra and Kirsty home (the people i live with). Kirsty is laying on the toilet floor trying not to vomit and Sandra is in bed with a bucket and then i hear Kane had been throwing up all night too!! talk about a REALLY nasty bug. Sandra had to go to the doctors to get an injection to help stop her spewing up. I went also to get a doctors cert. They just said it was a nasty virus and i can keep on getting it if its passed around enough :/ Ah well. Also today i sold my xbox and lara put $200 into my bank! yay for money for aussie. Nothing else to say now :/ seeya. Current Mood: sympathetic (Comment on this)
Monday, May 9th, 2005
12:01 am	Love is not enough!! Mmmm hello! how are we all? fine and dandy? thats cool! Im bored as FUCK! i think allll of my friends have deserted me!! This sucks. Yeah so my weekend sucked poos again :P On friday night I was ment to go to a party but I had no ride :( and so all i did was saw half a drag queen show with my mummy. It was um, funky. Saturday I went to the movies with Chris, Steve and Kane. Saw Kingdown of Heaven, twas pretty ok I think. Then I went back to Kanes and we fell asleep. SOOOO exciting. Today I worked my butt off. We were so busy. Then I came back to Dales house and made dinner and now here I am!!! So yeh I called Lara last night. Shes going to be giving me some money towards my Aussie trip and I shall get my first payment on Friday. Hooray. Also I told my xbox because I dont use it and I need the money so thats a couple of hundred more towards it. I definately have my heart set on going on around July 20th and Lara said that its fine with her. Um I need more useless shit to gabber about.... Today was mothers day and I didnt even get to see mum :( I was too busy working. Tomorrow ill have to give her a pressie. Hmm its her first day back at work tomorrow since her operation, I wonder how she will go. Um sleep time. Current Mood: bored (Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 3rd, 2005
12:56 pm	Hubert Cumberdale, you taste like soot and poo!! Hello The new NIN album came out yesterday!! so exciting. I have a copy here ;> been listening to it non stop since about 9am :P Anyways had a job interview at Tower Insurance today. Not sure how it went. Not too bad I guess. I dont really care if I get the job or not though because i want to be leaving NZ in July, and the interviewer said it would take about 6 months for me to learn the job and it will take about 19 months for me to get enough experience with it. It will screw up my Aussie plans, but I will still take it IF I get it. Atleast its not a Call Centre job! its um processing orders and shit. Too hard to explain :/ Anways go here http://www.fat-pie.com/flash.htm and watch Salad Fingers! He's my friend. So yeah my weekend sucked balls. I did NOTHING. I was in bet nearly all weekend. On Sunday I did a naughty and I didnt show up to work or call in or anything. All i did was stay in bed for 20 hours. Mum got some test results back from the doctor from her operation. Turns out the lump inside her wasnt a fibroid, it was a tumour. It had cancerous cells in it and they have to give her a CAT scan to see if its anywhere else in her body. Poor mum. She wont know anything for a while now because she hasnt had the scan yet and shes on a waiting list. Not much else to say. Twas just a lil quick update. Have a merry day!! Current Mood: pleased Current Music: nine inch nails - something i can never have (Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 26th, 2005
9:49 pm	HOKAY SO Hi. Whats uppie? Life is funky chicken at the moment. My plans are going to plan, yay! I hope to be out of this country on the 20th of July and i hope to go to Melbourne. I have been saving and Im applying for a new passport etc and Im going to give Lara a call tomorrow to see if the 20th is a good date for her. Umm what else? Jack all really. I work heaps, see Kane jack all and thats about it. Oh Friday night, that was fun! I went to Ivas and saw my buddy Mike, he was up from New Plymouth. Got drunk on beeeeer and had a jolly fun time. Ok home time. Current Mood: full (Comment on this)
Friday, April 8th, 2005
12:11 am	and australia was like WTF mate? ^^ Hello ;> So um... planning stuff!!! Ive always wanted to move to aussie. My bessstt friend lives in Melbourne and moves to and from Perth heaps. Anyways my ultimate goal is to go see her sometime this year. We have been talking heaps and planning stuff. Ive got a couple of hundred saved but i need to save a couple more. Im going to sell my xbox and ive asked for more hours at work and ive been saving any spare money i get. Will accept donations :P nah anyways Ive told Kane that its quite possible that I will be moving over there soon. Like my passport expires in June so i want to go there before it expires to save me like $80 on getting another one. Ill see how it goes I guess. Its so funny because I wont have any income there and my friend is a stripper and shes trying so hard to convince me to do it with her but theres just no way in hell i would or could :P she said heaps of bigger girls do it but i csnt see myself doing it. Can you fullas imagine me ?? lol @ that. Kane is really upset about it all and wont stop going on but i said i probably wont even go knowing me so he shouldnt worry til i get a ticket or something. He doesnt listen :/ I just farted. My insomnia is just STUPIDLY bad at the moment. Im awake til 5am no matter what time i actually hop into bed or no matter how tired i am. Its so fucked up and im sick of it. I dont know what helps. Im hoping that ill eventually get so tired that i just eventually fall asleep and not wake up for days. Fmeh um rest time!!!! Current Mood: hopeful Current Music: Kidney Thieves - Pretty.. its stuck in my head :( (Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 5th, 2005
3:53 pm	AHH MOTHERLAND!! Hello!!! So like my day off again, yay!! Oh yeh Simon wants to work at my work answering Pizza Hutt calls. LOL ? Does anyone think hes going to be able to handle customers treating him like shit and him not being able to do anything about it? I personally dont think hes going to be able to handle the jandal. Plus also one of my bosses is a complete tard and he will get sick to death of her the minute he meets her. Also hes going to get BORED because work there sucks. I cant go to work without a book in my hand otherwise i go insane with boredom. Good luck mateeeyy. Anyways me and Kane had like a 5 day break. It was good. Im pleased with it and I now know what I have to do in order to be happy. Tis going to be hard though especially since I think deep down inside he knowsss im going to leave him and he keeps trying to butter me up and say how much he loves me. Its making it WAY harder but oh well. Life has been -ok- for me lately. Everything is ok except Kane and my insomnia is back again god fucking damn it. Sometimes I lay awake at night until its light before i can actually sleep and i have no idea why. Nothing can put me to sleep and its stupiddd. I dread night time :( Esp since I seem to only get anxiety at night and I cant sleep and I get bored and I go insane. Literally :) Oh yeh about my Saturday night... I went to Chris's (MyOldSocks) place after work because he lives like rigghhtt across the road from it. Him and Brent (Cheese) were there playing Xbox. Anyways he offers me some vodka so i accept. Then Dan and Taz and Tyler turn up with some Jim Beam. By the time they arrived I was already half cut because I hardly drink lately and when I do i get trashed so very easily. Then Chris offers me some Excalliber (8.5% beer) and me being the booze hag i am, I accept. I end up with a Jimmy in one hand and a Excalliber in the other. Then I drunkenly try to play Soulcalibur 3.. or was it 4? Anyways I dont really remember much about the night. But the next minute i KIND OF remember sitting on Chris' knee crying saying I have no friends O_o and then he gives me a soft toy! I semi remember that bit. Next thing I know im trying to put Eyeliner on Tyler and Dan but obviously I am too drunk and i poke them in the eyes and they get shitty and make Taz do it :P Theennn I remember Tyler and Dan wanting to go to Queen St to play Dance Dance Revolution O_o Awesome eh ? So like they leave and Chris, Brent, Taz and I say we will follow once Taz is drunk enough. Then things really start to become blurry. I SEMI remember leaving the house. Then I remember being on Queen St and then I THINK I remember Dans friend John coming up to us and running into one of us. Apparently I kissed John ? What the hell ? I didn't know until he told me last night. Apparently it wasnt a PROPER Kiss but he said hes never been kissed like "that" before :/. Anyways I remember being in Dennys and seeing these 2 super g33ks from work. Harry and Stewart hehehe. I've always said that they both look like they belong in the NASA call centre. So g33ky. I apparently sat next to them and drunkenly blabbered on about some shit for ages and in the process I managed to piss of Stewart and loose my jersey. Typical of me. I remember dropping my phone and it smashed and Chris picked it up and he put it in his pocket to keep it safe. Then i remember being at home about to go to sleep. Apparently i also kissed Brent. Thats it O_o. What the hell is all i can say ? I've heard WAY more stories about shit that I did and i honestly dont remember any of them at all. I blame it on the Absinthe that I tried for the first time that night. I feel dirty O_o but i guess everyone does stupid shit when they are drunk. Some more then others. So yeh i woke up with a hangover on Sunday and I got dropped home at like 8am and I stumbled insife, still drunk.. got some water and then totally comad until it was time to wake up and go to work for like 6 hours. Sucks for me. Anyways thats the only funky thing thats happened lately. Time to get dressed. Toodle Ooes. Current Mood: embarrassed Current Music: i have the womans day ad in my head. got nutcase? (Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 29th, 2005
3:36 pm	gidday Another quick update on me boring life. No work today. Yay. Going to have a chat with Kane tonight. I was ment to when I saw him on Sunday night but I just couldn't. Anyways I think a break is in order for us at the moment so i'm goin to tell him. I love him heaps but when i'm around him I go quiet and not myself and he pisses me off really easy and he doesn't even do anything wrong. It's just me being a typical female I think and he doesn't deserve that. I'm nervous :O sucks to be be me really. Wish me luck thx. Anyways going to fix my pc in about half an hour and actually make it use able because it's a hunk of junk at the moment. Dale is going to upgrade it and shit. Exciting stuff really :P Fmeh i'm going to be lonely with no Kane dammit. Someone please be my friend ? I might be moving back into Dale's AGAIN. for like the 5th time in my life. I don't want to but my sister doesn't want to live here and we still ain't welcome at her place because Bill is still a stupid wanker apparently. I'd feel way too random living here without Kelly since she's known these fullas for like 16 years or some crap. So um I better go brush my hair and get ready to go out. Just thought i'd update because im boorreed and theres nothing else to do. Bye friends. Current Mood: nervous Current Music: a perfect circle Peace Love & Understanding stuck in my head (Comment on this)